The way to love someone
is to lightly run your finger over that person's soul
until you find a crack,
and then gently pour your love into that crack.
~Keith Miller

Saturday, November 26, 2016




"You have traveled too fast over false ground; 
Now your soul has come to take you back. 



Take refuge in your senses, open up 
To all the small miracles you rushed through. 



Become inclined to watch the way of rain 
When it falls slow and free. 



Imitate the habit of twilight, 
Taking time to open the well of color 
That fostered the brightness of day. 



Draw alongside the silence of stone 
Until its calmness can claim you." 



~ John O'Donohue





That is my black sheep wool sweater.  I think that is funny.

I didn't want to walk the dog's walk - Sammy's walk - without him.  I have been putting off "doing the walk" now since he is gone.  I have been waiting on my husband to do it with me - without asking him to.  I know he misses Sammy too.  I know it's the sort of walk one has to work up to ... I thought he would ask me if I wanted to go for "a walk" when he was ready.  I didn't want to go by myself the first time, so, I've been waiting.  

The silence of stone is calming.  I like to sometimes stack rocks along the walk.  Stones are good secret keepers.  Sounds a little weird - I'm just saying if you knew about rocks or stones they could tell stories.  There's not enough time on the planet to know about much but I would like to know more about geology.  I was really surprised by how much I liked the rocks at the Smithsonian. 

I'm not ready for another dog.  I will be someday, just not yet.

Those walks are good.  I need to get back to them. 

Tongues in trees, 
books in the running brooks, 
sermons in stones,
and good in everything.

-William Shakespeare, “As You Like It”
(found @ Gladsome Lights)

Friday, November 25, 2016

Thanksgiving 2016


Because of relatively wicked winds aloft last week, my little get acquainted flight was cancelled - rescheduled for Wednesday next week (Stall recoveries and a few maneuvers for me).  Bounced around by wind shear is not fun in an airplane that weighs 1320 soakin' wet and fully loaded (max TO 1320 - sample loading problem with full fuel {24 gallons@6#per = 144} and 46 pounds of baggage {50 max} leaving a skimpy 300 pounds for me to share with the other pilot or pax.  300 pounds is a ludicrous number for two adults - which had to be the primary flaw in the SkyCatcher's viability.  The normal, average weight, for a regular sized guy begins at 185, more if he works out.  Doesn't leave much.


Three spent the week with us.  He scheduled wisdom tooth removal and a quiet recovery with us near at hand just in case.  I didn't get to hover over him near as much as I wanted to.  His sister said he looks like a hipster fashion model.  He said his work doesn't require much on the appearance side which is great because time for haircuts is hard time to find.  I think he probably gets a lot of compliments or at least positive nonverbal feedback.


Four came in on Saturday before big brother had to head back to Denver on Monday.  There is something very special about an empty quilt closet. Can't remember when I last woke up with four of our five snuggled in under their grandmother's time softened  handmade quilts.


One and Three amused themselves playing some gameboy game that can link between devices  near each other.  How many times have I taken their camaraderie for granted over the years? They are almost 7 years apart in age and have always gotten along well together,  Just seeing everyone engaged in simple things like this was precious for me.

Four and Five out on the back deck - the weather was mostly great!

video

Four shooting at the gun range

Voodoo Donuts


One with his dog (a 9 month old Australian Shepard)

Not because we are short on good cooks, but because we are very short on working space in the kitchen I prepared the meal part of the "feast" by myself with V baking pies as time slots allowed!
She did a fantastic job with a lemon meringue which was one of my mom's specialties.  Momma would have been so pleased and impressed!

Last picture of the day 

brie with cranberry orange jalapeno compote
with cocktails - 


soup

dinner
(which for me is all about the turkey, dressing and gravy)

menu
grocery list
cooking schedule

the deer are starting to get "fiesty"



 Table cleared, leftovers stored, dishes done by One and Four
(while I zoned-out in the hammock) 

Sunday, November 20, 2016

on compassion - collection of notes

I'm starting to think a bit about compassion - my husband said compassion is for women (because we are gullible thus more readily disposed towards compassionate behaviors ... just look at where Merkel took Germany for example ... ).  
Lol - I said that seems a bit condescending. 
I'm thinking about what seems to be a manipulation of society by labeling choices/attitudes/behaviors "compassionate" which are actually to our collective detriment. 

[update - just this between these brackets 30 Nov. 16 -

- compassion (sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others) doesn't make you, your neighborhood, or your entire Nation, a doormat.  I am reminded of the saying large doors swing on little hinges (something like that).  The information that I have to work with about "refugees" for example, is incomplete.  Providing sanctuary to people fleeing crappy places is not necessarily the most compassionate conclusion.  

On one hand, we have the gum ball guy's talk on immigration (see above) on the other, or another, hand, we have - well, this: 

Virginia Sen. Tim Kaine said Monday he was saddened by the “senseless act of gun violence” at Ohio State University, even though the attacker used a butcher knife and a car.
Mr. Kaine, who ran on the 2016 Democratic ticket with presidential nominee Hillary Clinton, was accused of pushing a gun-control agenda after his Twitter post blaming firearms for the siege.
Kaine is supposed to be a better thinker than comments like that indicate.  He is representing large groups of people and I, perhaps naively, want to believe that our elected voices for "the people" aren't "dumb-dumbs" with talking points (guns bad. sing along with the bouncing ball...).  He is not my Senator/Representative, but he is a position to speak towards our collective governance.
and this:
an immigrant Artan was born in Somalia and moved to Pakistan with his family in 2007. He came to the United States as a legal permanent resident in 2014. Ohio State attacker
This story wasn't about a gun, or gun violence.  The gun part of the story is a man intent on a murderous attack on "regular people" was stopped/killed/shot dead by an officer of the law. It could have been a "regular person" with a gun but it wasn't - I wonder how that would have played out. Let's direct collective angst toward senseless gun violence and away from senseless Muslim immigrant violence.   
It seems that we are encouraged to believe that all Muslims are regular people, immigrating victims who must be treated with compassion.  I mean - soldiers wear uniforms identifying themselves, these guys aren't soldiers ... we wouldn't allow foreign soldiers to walk among us would we?  
I wonder how much we are willing to spend on "compassion" (There should be a well publicized conversation on what it costs to support an immigrant - financial costs are just a matter of fact and public record - societal costs aren't as easily calculated and when a recipient of "compassion" freaks out, the cost to their victim/s is not a matter for calculation ... I wonder, am I safe out walking on the local trail ... that is what terrorism is about, inciting fear with acts of violence to manipulate outcomes.
... what ever that amount is, I would like for it to be spent on American servicemen/women and their families (and cops actually).  If there is compassion money left over after that, I'd like to see it go towards projects that benefit our country.  I think immigrants should be assigned to "people of that particular compassion" who want to help immigrants assimilate in to American norms.  Let those folks host immigrates in their homes as one might a foreign exchange student - let them be accountable to their neighbors for what that community thinks is right. 
I don't want to spend my compassion on soldiers intent on harming this Country.  I don't think that is compassion well spent.]

  
Compassion seems be getting a bad rap of late because "a concern for everybody" (So the traditions also insisted -- and this is an important point, I think -- that you could not and must not confine your compassion to your own group: your own nation, your own co-religionists, your own fellow countrymen. You must have what one of the Chinese sages called "jian ai": concern for everybody. Love your enemies. Honor the stranger. We formed you, says the Quran, into tribes and nations so that you may know one another. ~Karen Armstrong) ... "a concern for everybody" isn't working for everybody.  The recipients of compassion aren't "behaving" as society would hope.  Some recipients seem to feel entitled.  Stories like the one linked seem to abound.


Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort ~ Corinthians 1:3

We were sent into the world alive with beauty. As soon as we choose Beauty, unseen forces conspire to guide and encourage us towards unexpected forms of compassion, healing and creativity. ~John O'Donohue


“We must learn to regard people less in the light of what they do or omit to do, and more in the light of what they suffer.” 
― Dietrich Bonhoeffer

“A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.” 

“No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted.” 
― Aesop

“If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.” 
― Dalai Lama 

Compassion - sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others.

The Hebrew (hamal [l;m'j], rachuwm [Wj;r]) and Greek (splanchnisomai [splagcNIVzomai]) words sometimes translated as "compassion" also bear a broader meaning such as "to show pity, " "to love, " and "to show mercy." Other near synonyms for compassion in English are "to be loved by, " "to show concern for, " "to be tenderhearted, " and "to act kindly."

What is Compassion?


Twelve Steps to a Compassionate Life, by Karen Armstrong Summary by Judy Lee Trainman
Summary pdf here

My Wish: The Charter for Compassion TED TALK

(transcript from the TED TALK)

Well, this is such an honor. And it's wonderful to be in the presence of an organization that is really making a difference in the world. And I'm intensely grateful for the opportunity to speak to you today.
0:29And I'm also rather surprised, because when I look back on my life the last thing I ever wanted to do was write, or be in any way involved in religion. After I left my convent, I'd finished with religion, frankly. I thought that was it. And for 13 years I kept clear of it. I wanted to be an English literature professor. And I certainly didn't even want to be a writer, particularly. But then I suffered a series of career catastrophes,one after the other, and finally found myself in television. (Laughter) I said that to Bill Moyers, and he said, "Oh, we take anybody." (Laughter)
1:21And I was doing some rather controversial religious programs. This went down very well in the U.K., where religion is extremely unpopular. And so, for once, for the only time in my life, I was finally in the mainstream. But I got sent to Jerusalem to make a film about early Christianity. And there, for the first time, I encountered the other religious traditions: Judaism and Islam, the sister religions of Christianity.And while I found I knew nothing about these faiths at all -- despite my own intensely religious background, I'd seen Judaism only as a kind of prelude to Christianity, and I knew nothing about Islam at all.
2:10But in that city, that tortured city, where you see the three faiths jostling so uneasily together, you also become aware of the profound connection between them. And it has been the study of other religious traditions that brought me back to a sense of what religion can be, and actually enabled me to look at my own faith in a different light.
2:34And I found some astonishing things in the course of my study that had never occurred to me. Frankly, in the days when I thought I'd had it with religion, I just found the whole thing absolutely incredible. These doctrines seemed unproven, abstract. And to my astonishment, when I began seriously studying other traditions, I began to realize that belief -- which we make such a fuss about today -- is only a very recent religious enthusiasm that surfaced only in the West, in about the 17th century. 
The word "belief" itself originally meant to love, to prize, to hold dear. In the 17th century, it narrowed its focus, for reasons that I'm exploring in a book I'm writing at the moment, to include -- to mean an intellectual assent to a set of propositions, a credo. "I believe:" it did not mean, "I accept certain creedal articles of faith." It meant: "I commit myself. I engage myself." 
Indeed, some of the world traditions think very little of religious orthodoxy. In the Quran, religious opinion -- religious orthodoxy -- is dismissed as "zanna:" self-indulgent guesswork about matters that nobody can be certain of one way or the other, but which makes people quarrelsome and stupidly sectarian. (Laughter)
4:13So if religion is not about believing things, what is it about? What I've found, across the board, is that religion is about behaving differently. Instead of deciding whether or not you believe in God, first you do something. You behave in a committed way, and then you begin to understand the truths of religion. And religious doctrines are meant to be summons to action; you only understand them when you put them into practice.
4:47Now, pride of place in this practice is given to compassion. And it is an arresting fact that right across the board, in every single one of the major world faiths, compassion -- the ability to feel with the other in the way we've been thinking about this evening -- is not only the test of any true religiosity, it is also what will bring us into the presence of what Jews, Christians and Muslims call "God" or the "Divine." It is compassion, says the Buddha, which brings you to Nirvana. Why? Because in compassion, when we feel with the other, we dethrone ourselves from the center of our world and we put another person there. And once we get rid of ego, then we're ready to see the Divine.
5:45And in particular, every single one of the major world traditions has highlighted -- has said -- and put at the core of their tradition what's become known as the Golden Rule. First propounded by Confucius five centuries before Christ: "Do not do to others what you would not like them to do to you." That, he said, was the central thread which ran through all his teaching and that his disciples should put into practice all day and every day. And it was -- the Golden Rule would bring them to the transcendent value that he called "ren," human-heartedness, which was a transcendent experience in itself.
6:26And this is absolutely crucial to the monotheisms, too. There's a famous story about the great rabbi, Hillel, the older contemporary of Jesus. A pagan came to him and offered to convert to Judaism if the rabbi could recite the whole of Jewish teaching while he stood on one leg. Hillel stood on one leg and said, "That which is hateful to you, do not do to your neighbor. That is the Torah. The rest is commentary.Go and study it." (Laughter)
6:55And "go and study it" was what he meant. He said, "In your exegesis, you must make it clear that every single verse of the Torah is a commentary, a gloss upon the Golden Rule." The great Rabbi Meir said that any interpretation of Scripture which led to hatred and disdain, or contempt of other people -- any people whatsoever -- was illegitimate.
7:26Saint Augustine made exactly the same point. Scripture, he says, "teaches nothing but charity, and we must not leave an interpretation of Scripture until we have found a compassionate interpretation of it."And this struggle to find compassion in some of these rather rebarbative texts is a good dress rehearsal for doing the same in ordinary life. (Applause)
7:54But now look at our world. And we are living in a world that is -- where religion has been hijacked. Where terrorists cite Quranic verses to justify their atrocities. Where instead of taking Jesus' words, "Love your enemies. Don't judge others," we have the spectacle of Christians endlessly judging other people,endlessly using Scripture as a way of arguing with other people, putting other people down. Throughout the ages, religion has been used to oppress others, and this is because of human ego, human greed. We have a talent as a species for messing up wonderful things.
8:49So the traditions also insisted -- and this is an important point, I think -- that you could not and must not confine your compassion to your own group: your own nation, your own co-religionists, your own fellow countrymen. You must have what one of the Chinese sages called "jian ai": concern for everybody. Love your enemies. Honor the stranger. We formed you, says the Quran, into tribes and nations so that you may know one another.
9:23And this, again -- this universal outreach -- is getting subdued in the strident use of religion -- abuse of religion -- for nefarious gains. Now, I've lost count of the number of taxi drivers who, when I say to them what I do for a living, inform me that religion has been the cause of all the major world wars in history. Wrong. The causes of our present woes are political.
9:57But, make no mistake about it, religion is a kind of fault line, and when a conflict gets ingrained in a region, religion can get sucked in and become part of the problem. Our modernity has been exceedingly violent. Between 1914 and 1945, 70 million people died in Europe alone as a result of armed conflict.And so many of our institutions, even football, which used to be a pleasant pastime, now causes riots where people even die. And it's not surprising that religion, too, has been affected by this violent ethos.
10:48There's also a great deal, I think, of religious illiteracy around. People seem to think, now equate religious faith with believing things. As though that -- we call religious people often believers, as though that were the main thing that they do. And very often, secondary goals get pushed into the first place, in place of compassion and the Golden Rule. Because the Golden Rule is difficult. I sometimes -- when I'm speaking to congregations about compassion, I sometimes see a mutinous expression crossing some of their faces because a lot of religious people prefer to be right, rather than compassionate. (Laughter)
11:42Now -- but that's not the whole story. Since September the 11th, when my work on Islam suddenly propelled me into public life, in a way that I'd never imagined, I've been able to sort of go all over the world, and finding, everywhere I go, a yearning for change. I've just come back from Pakistan, where literally thousands of people came to my lectures, because they were yearning, first of all, to hear a friendly Western voice. And especially the young people were coming. And were asking me -- the young people were saying, "What can we do? What can we do to change things?" And my hosts in Pakistan said, "Look, don't be too polite to us. Tell us where we're going wrong. Let's talk together about where religion is failing."
12:42Because it seems to me that with -- our current situation is so serious at the moment that any ideology that doesn't promote a sense of global understanding and global appreciation of each other is failing the test of the time. And religion, with its wide following ... Here in the United States, people may be being religious in a different way, as a report has just shown -- but they still want to be religious. It's only Western Europe that has retained its secularism, which is now beginning to look rather endearingly old-fashioned.
13:27But people want to be religious, and religion should be made to be a force for harmony in the world, which it can and should be -- because of the Golden Rule. "Do not do to others what you would not have them do to you": an ethos that should now be applied globally. We should not treat other nations as we would not wish to be treated ourselves.
13:56And these -- whatever our wretched beliefs -- is a religious matter, it's a spiritual matter. It's a profound moral matter that engages and should engage us all. And as I say, there is a hunger for change out there.Here in the United States, I think you see it in this election campaign: a longing for change. And people in churches all over and mosques all over this continent after September the 11th, coming together locally to create networks of understanding. With the mosque, with the synagogue, saying, "We must start to speak to one another." I think it's time that we moved beyond the idea of toleration and move toward appreciation of the other.
14:51I'd -- there's one story I'd just like to mention. This comes from "The Iliad." But it tells you what this spirituality should be. You know the story of "The Iliad," the 10-year war between Greece and Troy. In one incident, Achilles, the famous warrior of Greece, takes his troops out of the war, and the whole war effort suffers. And in the course of the ensuing muddle, his beloved friend, Patroclus, is killed -- and killed in single combat by one of the Trojan princes, Hector. And Achilles goes mad with grief and rage and revenge, and he mutilates the body. He kills Hector, he mutilates his body and then he refuses to give the body back for burial to the family, which means that, in Greek ethos, Hector's soul will wander eternally, lost. And then one night, Priam, king of Troy, an old man, comes into the Greek camp incognito, makes his way to Achilles' tent to ask for the body of his son. And everybody is shocked when the old man takes off his head covering and shows himself. And Achilles looks at him and thinks of his father. And he starts to weep. And Priam looks at the man who has murdered so many of his sons, and he, too, starts to weep. And the sound of their weeping filled the house. The Greeks believed that weeping together created a bond between people. And then Achilles takes the body of Hector, he hands it very tenderly to the father, and the two men look at each other, and see each other as divine.
16:44That is the ethos found, too, in all the religions. It's what is meant by overcoming the horror that we feel when we are under threat of our enemies, and beginning to appreciate the other. It's of great importance that the word for "holy" in Hebrew, applied to God, is "Kadosh": separate, other. And it is often, perhaps, the very otherness of our enemies which can give us intimations of that utterly mysterious transcendence which is God.
17:22And now, here's my wish: I wish that you would help with the creation, launch and propagation of a Charter for Compassion, crafted by a group of inspirational thinkers from the three Abrahamic traditions of Judaism, Christianity and Islam, and based on the fundamental principle of the Golden Rule. We need to create a movement among all these people that I meet in my travels -- you probably meet, too -- who want to join up, in some way, and reclaim their faith, which they feel, as I say, has been hijacked. We need to empower people to remember the compassionate ethos, and to give guidelines. This Charter would not be a massive document. I'd like to see it -- to give guidelines as to how to interpret the Scriptures, these texts that are being abused. Remember what the rabbis and what Augustine said about how Scripture should be governed by the principle of charity. Let's get back to that. And the idea, too, of Jews, Christians and Muslims -- these traditions now so often at loggerheads -- working together tocreate a document which we hope will be signed by a thousand, at least, of major religious leaders from all the traditions of the world.
18:58And you are the people. I'm just a solitary scholar. Despite the idea that I love a good time, which I was rather amazed to see coming up on me -- I actually spend a great deal of time alone, studying, and I'm not very -- you're the people with media knowledge to explain to me how we can get this to everybody,everybody on the planet. I've had some preliminary talks, and Archbishop Desmond Tutu, for example, is very happy to give his name to this, as is Imam Feisal Rauf, the Imam in New York City. Also, I would be working with the Alliance of Civilizations at the United Nations. I was part of that United Nations initiative called the Alliance of Civilizations, which was asked by Kofi Annan to diagnose the causes of extremism,and to give practical guidelines to member states about how to avoid the escalation of further extremism.
20:09And the Alliance has told me that they are very happy to work with it. The importance of this is that this is -- I can see some of you starting to look worried, because you think it's a slow and cumbersome body --but what the United Nations can do is give us some neutrality, so that this isn't seen as a Western or a Christian initiative, but that it's coming, as it were, from the United Nations, from the world -- who would help with the sort of bureaucracy of this.
20:40And so I do urge you to join me in making -- in this charter -- to building this charter, launching it and propagating it so that it becomes -- I'd like to see it in every college, every church, every mosque, every synagogue in the world, so that people can look at their tradition, reclaim it, and make religion a source of peace in the world, which it can and should be. Thank you very much. (Applause)

  • The First Step Learn About Compassion
  • The Second Step Look at Your Own World
  • The Third Step Compassion for Yourself 
  • The Fourth Step Empathy
  • The Fifth Step Mindfulness
  • The Sixth Step Action
  • The Seventh Step How Little We Know
  • The Eighth Step - How Should We Speak to One Another
  • The Ninth Step Concern for Everybody
  • The Tenth Step Knowledge
  • The Eleventh Step Recognition
  • The Twelfth Step - Love Your Enemies  
  • A person who is impartial, fair, calm, gentle, serene, accepting and openhearted is a refuge .
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these pictures were taken today - that's why they're posted here 
no relevance to the topic

I was walking down by the river, talking to D (her dad is with hospice now and we are sad about that)
she has a granddaughter to meet up this way
deaths and births seem to come together

later I went grocery shopping in Austin at my two favorite grocery stores - lunch tomorrow is to a celebration time for my husband's birthday - four of our kids are able to be here
it's a joy to know that four of them will wake up under the same roof tomorrow morning.

I attempted the SwissPastry Shop's delicious Black Forrest Cake today - putting the layers together tomorrow,
so far it's pretty yummy. My layers of almond meringue aren't as think as these in the picture ... . 



Shadow walked down to the water with me today
He surprised me by hopping on to my "step" in the water.


Egret let meet pretty close - 



today
there is definitely something "older- looking" going on with me lately