malignant foolishness

How incredible was the general apathy! They were all eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the awful morning dawned. There was not one wise individual upon earth outside of the ark. Folly duped the whole race: folly as to self-preservation, the most fooling of all follies. Folly in doubting the most true God: the most malignant foolishness. Is it not strange, my soul? All men are negligent of their souls until grace gives them reason; then they leave their madness and act like rational beings, but not until then.

~Alistair Begg. 1 November 2014 email note/daily devotional entitled "Folly of Doubt"

Devotional material is taken from “Morning and Evening,” written by C.H. Spurgeon, revised and updated by Alistair Begg. Copyright © 2003, Good News Publishers and used by Truth For Life with written permission.

Malignant foolishness 

...doubting the most true God.

I've been thinking about doubting God a lot lately.
It seems like it's impossible not to harbor some doubt(s).

I'm thinking about it like this -  If I am honorable, if I am true and good and just beyond the slightest reproach, and I say ... just something, anything, not a big deal debatable thing, if ... whatever I say is contested ... that would really get old.

"I made that cake."

Uh uh, no you didn't, it was there when I walked into the room.  As a matter of fact, I believe it simply happened."

"I folded those clothes."

No you didn't.  That can't be possible. I didn't see you do that.  Didn't hear you doing that ... liar."

I did the simplest little thing this morning after I walked Sammy.  We were out of eggs because I seem to be too busy to remember small things like that.  I decided during the walk to use up the rest of the buttermilk by mixing it with blueberry muffin mix then scooping it out on to the griddle  for a quick breakfast of pancakes.  I did that.  Nobody said anything about how it wasn't the proper way to use muffin mix, or syrup is only for pancakes.  Nobody thought Sammy may have fixed breakfast instead of me, even though I almost always fix something with eggs for our breakfasts around here.  No doubt or criticism was expressed ... only appreciation.

It must be really tiring for God.

"I'm going to take a shower now and get ready for work ... . "

"No you're not."

(And/or the other ... "Okay, go take your shower, this is how you do it ... step one, step two, step three ... don't dawdle I have a whole list of things for you to do today.")