My treadmill was plugged in today for the first time since we moved to this house.  60 minutes on the treadmill doesn't sound like that big "a" deal - should be easy to reincorporate some cardio back in to my routine.  It's time, past time actually.
My treadmill has a ledge, a 1/2" deep pocket across the front, below the data screen, which perfectly accommodates either my laptop or an iPad.  The most difficult part of the work out is finding something interesting to watch for an hour.  I guess that's where the TED talks I keep pinning in the middle of the night come in.

I still haven't meandered  to a new word or interesting idea to think about ... sometimes I think I have forgotten how to be truly interested in anything.  That's weird isn't it?  It's like, this intensely interested in lots of things both big and small, has suddenly become a shoulder shrugger.  Spellcheck informs me that is not a word - meh - it should be.

Lobsters have rights?

When we were little (and that's actually part of the problem - there's no "little we" at exactly the time I can do that part of the journey)...

When we were little we used to go to the playground, heading strait for the merry go round, whoever got there when all the places were taken, had to be the pusher.  We did the until someone puks or the last kid gets slung off version of merry.  That was back in the day.  I liked the feeling of the sky spinning. That sort of thing felt very focused to me.  Even later during flight training with my old fighter pilot CFI - I liked that he couldn't rattle me and I liked that he tried really hard to do so.

I think I have lost my ability to focus.

When my brother was dying (cancer) not focusing worked best.  Cancer, for the surviver, is a day by day sort of thing and all the edges are best blurred.

Today, my kid brother's only son is turning 30.  I know I am supposed to "represent" his dad somehow with a meaningful birthday gesture, but ... I don't now how to.  I don't want to spend the day looking for just the right picture to send with a birthday note ... maybe later today.  I'll try.

I am discombobulated.  Huh - it took it, first time, no spelling adjustments needed.

I like the looks of that word.  Not for my word - not for my word to think about or anything. Just - its a funny word and it looks funny.

I have thought that maybe "we" are designed to live in the day ... I think that's what they're taking about with all the "intentional" stuff.  What that - staying in the day -being present,etc. - I've been doing that.  I don't think that works for me.  I might be more of a big picture sort of person.

I am supposed to be enjoying doing things around my house.  And I do really like what I'm doing. and while I'm thinking about it 116/1000 (thankfully - its a gratitude challenge, probably an exercise, but I like challenge resonates better for me) - I am thankful that I can afford the stuff I want for my little home improvement projects.