It was old-fashioned when I was a young woman, but still known, to have a "hope chest". A hope chest is a collection of things that a woman might start putting together for when she starts her own home. I had (and still have) an old pine toy box. When I was about 14 I started filling it with things I thought I would need at college. My bank gave a place setting of dinnerware away with different savings milestones ... like a challenge ... those where my dishes. I loved thinking about that box and what it represented to me. I was very careful with what went in to it. Now, I find that I am doing that again with an eye towards our next home. I can see some of the details but the framework is intentionally fuzzy. I have a sailboat quilt, it is twin bed size. I will make an airplane quilt to be it's buddy. I hope to see grandchildren resting, tousled and toasty-brown, under them someday. I have a drawing in mind to hang in one of the bathrooms ... it is of a child running barefoot along the shore with a beach towel flagging out behind, like superman's cape. It will be a very detailed pencil drawing ... complex, yet simple. I see it clearly in my mind's eye and it reminds me of my childhood and makes me wish to see other littles who might come to visit. I am editing our stuff with the question "Do we want this at the beach" in mind.
That brings me to our books ... well, my books, L will have to sort through his own. I culled out quite a few that I won't read again and that have no sentimental value to me. Buried, behind closed shelving I have found a small stack of favorite (I guess) romance novels. At some point in my younger days I stopped reading romance novels ... yes I have indulged the occasional harlequin romance whose main merit is that if it falls in to my bath water I haven't lost the ending ... it's predictable ... easy to set aside when the water gets too cold! A literary bag of cheetos. I liked Thorn birds ... both the book and the mini series. I like them still. But why did I save theseother three? Yep ... my name is written inside each of them. Belva Plain; Random Winds. Sally Quinn; Happy Endings. Janet Dailey; Heiress ... a peek inside reveals these titles also by: Touch the Wind, Ride the Thunder, Night Way, Silver Wings Santiago Blue, The Glory Came, The Great Alone, and finally Heiress. I don't remember actually reading any of those three books, but I know I did. I have been thinking about romance novels lately ... the leading man is always so male ... a hunter at heart, he has a passion for life ... a bit of a wild streak ... and because these things are written for women by women ... his heart, once healed, is forever true. Uh oh, I feel a pinch of cynicism tightening my lips. And now I remember why I put most of my collection out.
That guy, even if he really did exist, is not my husband. That guy is a lot like the perfectly posed and lit, airbrushed and otherwise enhanced, tasty caricature specifically created to appeal, to scratch some itch that when scratched spreads as surely as a bed of poisonous ivy. Poisonous ivy is so interesting, because the insidious allergic reaction doesn't manifest on the first several exposures ... sometimes the rash doesn't appear until the most inopportune moment ... one assumes they are immune and then those oozy, itchy welts appear and spread. My husband knows he has no immunities to it and still he blithely tromps through the woods ... he has had steroid shots for it ... we keep the special soap and ointment on hand at all times. I'm hoping there is no poisonous ivy at the coast. That stuff scares me.
Well, I am cleaning house today and working on restoring an old table that is looking really really great ... better then I hoped even. And later I will get to hang out with an old friend for a few precious minutes.
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